I get that little itch

Today I've been nostalgic. It has been a year since Jack and I first started seeing each other, and I've been reading over my old diaries of what I wrote back then, things have changed so much - I really feel we've all evolved so much, grown as people. My whole perception of the world was so different back then. A lot has happened in a year, people have come and gone from my life, I've learnt a lot about myself. But I'm itching to move, still. I can't sleep in my own bed for more then two nights in a row. I get antsy and frustrated. Staying at Jacks is good because there's so much commotion and catastrophe and even if people are yelling and there's drama it's still beautiful, it's electric. Right now I feel subdued, numb even. The sound has been turned down on the world around me. Last night another friend had a 21st, me and Lucy (in true fashion) snuck out during the speeches and smoked in the courtyard, we managed to talk about a lot in the space of 10 minutes and basically summarise the ups and downs of our lives. I feel that we've both learnt a lot about ourselves in the last year. It's always interesting seeing friends that you don't see every day and you realise you do have a lot to tell them, catching each other up to speed - it makes me feel more accomplished. I have done things, I have done things. In usual fashion I'm already planning Eurotrip #3 next year. Me and Jack bought Meredith tickets. I need these things, these events to look foreword to. The monotony of uni life is killing me. I love my classes I love short fiction and I love studying literature, it's more the repetitious public transport journeys, the 'killing time' in between classes. Sometimes I feel wasteful of my time. Got to get out got to get out. Nothing's more nostalgic to me then the Runaways, my introduction to punk when I was 15. The Runaways meant so much to me. This song defined how I felt about life and hey look it's still applicable. 

Over the last week I've been to a few gigs at the Melbourne Writers Fest. The first was 'Between Friends', and was run by three authors from the anthology 'Just Between Us' - which is all about female friendships, and realistically portraying them through creative non fiction and fiction, as opposed to the glamourised and often trivialised female friendships a la sex and the city / gossip girl etc. I really love this, me and Kassie went together and it was really enjoyable - the authors read excerpts from their stories, the vibe was similar to the tv show Girls - dirty realism but funny and endearing as well.

The other day I went to see 'Why I Read' - which had Chandrahas Choudhury, Jay Griffiths and Maureen McCarthy talking about the importance of reading - the books they read as children and how it effected them, what they read when they were coming of age - how it effected their own writing, what books they felt change them etc. It was really lovely and I feel that any avid reader could relate to what they said - something that particularly stuck with me was a quote - 'Reading is amazing in that it both consoles, and confirms loneliness'. I don't know if I even agree with that, but there's something powerfully sad in those words. I kind of wish they'd never said it.

 ~I love the Deakin Edge theatre!~ 

 ~one of my many vintage dresses from Japan~

Another great thing I did the other day was see the movie Frances Ha. I loved it so much! I actually found out about it at the writers festival, when one of the Just Between Us authors mentioned how realistic female friendships were becoming a popular topic of cinema and entertainment in general lately - Girls being the first 'big' breakthrough for the niche genre, and she mentioned the independent film so I looked it up at the Nova. To be honest I don't like the show Girls - when i first watched it I loved it and devoured the whole first season in a night, though when the second season came out I kind of wised up a bit. It's actually awful and terrible. Anyway Hannah as a character makes terrible life decisions and her OCD was all a bit too close to home for me to really want to watch any more. Frances Ha is similar in many ways - girl in New York, struggling with money and with life in general - boy troubles, best friend troubles, whatamidoingwithmylife kind of thing. But what I loved about it was that this main character (Frances) is so resolutely happy! Despite all the setbacks in her life and the obstacles she faces she keeps going and keeps smiling and it made me so happy and I hope that I'm like her and I like to think I am in some ways. 

~Seb outside our house before we went to see the movie~

 ~I spent all of yesterday in the bath eating pizza watching breaking bad chain smoking it was great~

~Me looking sulky~